Life as it goes...The next chapter begins...

I am helping stuff backpacks with food on Wed January 28, for the 3 square food bank. This gives kids who might not have a meal over the weekend ( because they receive free lunches during the week at school) , food. I would love to get some friends to come and help out as well .It is only from 930-1130 am . Go to the site and sign up. Let me know if you do and we can go together. http://www.volunteercentersn.org/projects/viewProject.php?_mode=occurrenceView&_action=load&ixActivity=64&_clearFlag=specialevent&_clearFlag=course&ixFeed=6

This week, my mother was placed on the lung transplant list at UCLA. Wow..that is a tough sentence to write. While shedding many tears on the phone with my sister Lori, she asked me "did you really think mom would be around forever?". I answered honestly " yes". It is the way I feel. I expect her to always be there to pick up when I call, to go to target and walk around, to meet at Nordstoms for lunch, to listen to me complain when I have had a hard day. The reality is...she wont be. My mom has a very rare, non explainable cronic lung disease. She will NOT be here forever and I am so sad and so afraid. I lost my father less than 3 years ago. This is a huge reminder of how hard that was. It affected every single aspect of my life. My friends, my kids, my marriage, all suffered while I was helping care for my dying father. I just have never really recovered from that and now here we areagain...faced with the mortality of a parent. I feel cheated and I am not even sure...