Life as it goes...The next chapter begins...

You know who you are...cropping people out of family pictures just makes you look silly and pathetic...get over it already.

I sit and write this from the darkness of my mom's hospital room. I type this on the tiny keyboard of my phone..and I can't help but think how thankful I am for medical technology. the machines that beep ..beep..beep..beep..are the windows into her health. it is amazing to see what they can use to monitor her..and at the same time,so frustrating that they can't just fix her :( it is a strange,horrible cycle a person goes through. we start out helpless and dependent..to end up helpless and dependent. I remember being a sick little girl and my mother saying " I would trade places with you if I could". I feel that way now. I would gladly take this on for her if I could. watching her suffer and having her tell me that the fight isn't worth it anymore,is sometimes more than I can take. so as I listen to the beep...beep...beep..i remember the nights she sat up when I was sick and think to myself " I wish I could do this for you". I love you mom.

I have looked at this page a few times lately and have tried to think of what to write. There just is not much time to get things into words that justify what I feel somedays ..so an update list of my thoughts lately might work best. 1. My mother is still ill, obviously. We needed a medication for her that was only available in Japan . We did everything we could to get it for her. She is now taking it and doing well. She said today she felt better then she had in months. 2. The kids...Scott has been accepted into 2 law schools as of right now. Still waiting to hear from 10 others. We are so excited and proud of him. Taylor has changed so much. It makes me sad in many ways to see my daughter become a person I no longr know. I hope it is a phase and she will find herself again. regardless, I Hope that she knows I love her so much I can not express it. Cassidy is doing GREAT! Over the SILLY boy and she has realized that there are many other boys out there. She also has come to see that p