A blog of my thoughts &ramblings
Robin Orchow Ficklin
MR AND MRS SCOTT FICKLIN
Get link
Facebook
X
Pinterest
Email
Other Apps
-
My son Scott got married 5.28.11. We are so thrilled to have Jen in our family. to see more pictures check out this link..http://izlas.com/blog/?p=2901
I fell in love..again. This past Summer, I reconnected with someone from my past. He was the last person I dated before dating my ex-husband. I will call him P. It started out as a friendship and then it became more. I tried to tell myself that I was not "all in" but I was. Once P said "I love you" to me, I realized I too was in love. Damn it, how did that happen? We had everything in common that two people can have in common. We could read each other's minds, finish each other's thoughts and we could not have been any more perfect for one-another. Along with the wonderful parts of love came red flags. I saw them, I ignored them and I excused them. Until I couldn't. It broke my heart, and truly was the hardest break up I ever have felt. It was harder than losing my marriage. With my marriage, I was numb. It was like after you have been hit in the same spot so many times, you just lose any sense of pain. But this was different. I took ...
I Made the Life I was Dreaming of My Actual Life So let me talk about my move to Hawaii and what it is all about. If you are new here, I am 55 years old, mother of 4 grown kids and grandma to 6. After 23 years of marriage, I decided that I needed a life. A happy life. I was tired and unhappy and decided it was ok to put myself first. Now, I did not just leave my life and move to paradise. I spent about 13 years getting my degree from Southern New Hampshire University online while I worked full time. I moved to michigan and I also built my career. I work for Little Unicorn and I love my job and the company. I will get into that in another post because it deserves its own post. After my kids were married and settled and done with school, I decided that I was going to build a life for myself. A single woman in her 50's can start over. I spent a few months selling everything and I mean..everything. I sold my car, my clothes,my dishes, books, my furn...
Well I found my blog after so long. SO much has changed. I moved to Hawaii. I am living the dream. Well...my dream. I have a beautiful home, wonderful friends and a life I have built. I have lost 60 lbs and feel so good. I left the LDS church and THAT has given me a sense of freedom. It was the final release from my life as I had lived it in my 20's,30's and my 40's for the most part. My 50's have been MINE! After moving to Hawaii in October of 2021, I began dating a really great guy named Craig. It was good. It just wasn't enough. After several months, I ended it. I feel good about it but every day I think about him, I miss him and I wonder if I rushed to end things. I am ok alone. I am pretty independent and I like myself enough to be ok with being alone. I just feel like there is someone and I can't figure out who it is, where he is. I am at the time in my life where I have more to offer than I have in the past. I have a good job, a degree and a good sense...
Comments