Life as it goes...The next chapter begins...

Rethinking Things... So if anyone knows me or has followed my blog, they know that I have been sad over the loss of my marriage. I am FINALLY GLEEFULLY over it.  I am not trying to slam my ex on here but after Thanksgiving drop off of our son, I AM OVER IT! I have put up with a lot over the years but this was the last straw. I am done being spoken to in that way, looked at that way and hurt that way.  I hope he is happy and finds something in life to bring him some joy but I AM FREEEEEEE!! The moment I have been waiting 5 years for happened, I officially do not care anymore. I am glad I am free of the hate, the negativity and disgust that he sees in everything.  To anyone in any type of abusive relationship, get out. You have the right and deserve the right to be happy. I am so glad I know men that are truly kind. Happy Holidays to all. I am truly over the moon happy.

I do a lot of thinking...I wish I didn't. I was driving today and had random thoughts running through my head. I wondered why it is my ex-husband dislikes me so much. We were married for 23 years and although not a lot of it was good (obviously since we are divorced) a lot of it was wonderful. We had 4 amazing kids. I do not regret my marriage, it gave me the best people I know. My ex recently told my 21 year old daughter that marrying me was the biggest mistake of his life and that he wished he had someone who told him not to marry me.I was speechless.  There are many things in my life that I would change if I could. Some that are private and between me and Chad and others are obvious. I would never change loving him.He was VERY much my best friend. I miss that too. We grew up together in a lot of ways. We knew every good and every bad quality. I have zero memories of him ever lying to me. I loved that about him. I loved that I trusted him more than anyone else. I guess I still ...

So many people hate this holiday and I can sort of understand why. We place a lot of our romantic value, and worth on the gifts we give and receive. It is sad really, to think that roses mean love more than a Snicker's bar from 7-11. But lets face it, it is how it is. I have never in my entire life had a REAL Valentine's Day. I have not gotten flowers, lovey cards or heart shaped boxes of chocolates...from a boyfriend or my ex-husband (side note..he felt he did not need to be romantic since he is not Roman. nice excuse). My father however always gave the girls ( daughters and Grand-daughters) beautiful heart shaped boxes of candy from Ethel M's. I love this. I miss this. Not because I needed the candy or felt unloved but because he always wanted us to feel special and we did. I have known real love in my life. My father loved me in a way that nobody else ever has. He saw so much potential in me, and a lot of not fulfilling that potential  at the same time. He knew that I wa...

Wow life sure moves quickly. The past few months have been so full of change. Scott got a job with a judge in Idaho Falls and he and Jen moved there in September. They are liking living there. I miss seeing them but I am so happy for them and so proud. Scott would meet me for lunch in Logan and it was nice to have some time with him. They are back in Logan often but I still miss them just stopping by. Taylor and Josh are going to be moving to Iowa in August for Medical School. I knew it would happen but I never imagined Iowa. It will be an adjustment for sure but I know that they will be happy and successful and that is what I want. Cassidy is doing great at the salon she works for. She has grown up a lot and I am sure in the next year I will see some major life events going on for her. Brady..well that is a subject that makes my heart hurt a bit. Brady decided he was needing to be closer to his dad in Vegas and so he moved back. It was hard for many reasons but he needed to get ...

I am newly obsessed with DIY projects. I am always looking for new ( well old)  things to spray paint. I am loving all of the crafting and the decorating. I recently stumbled across this blog and had to share. This house is gorgeous. She has either made, built or refurbished pretty much every item in her home. I am copying a lot of it. She is my new hero.  Take a look, it will inspire you too I promise. http://www.thriftyandchic.com/p/house-tour.html

So yes I have ignored my blog for a year. I guess I assume nobody is even reading it so why bother? I decided to do a quick recap and just sort of ramble... I have a new job. It is great. I am working as a Legal Assistant at a law firm in Logan. I work with the nicest people and have learned a lot. I still have a lot to learn but I am sure it will all pull together in time. I moved. I left my 5 bedroom home and downsized to a townhouse. It is really pretty and very upgraded and I am loving the big bathtub and fireplace. I have a nice little grass yard where I have my patio table and we eat outside often. Oliver likes the yard as well and he has more freedom since it is fenced in. Cassidy moved out and into a town-home in the same development. She is living with friends and working in a salon doing hair. I am so proud of her. She has sure grown up this past year. Taylor and Josh moved as well and are in Logan for another year.  They both graduated from USU in May. They will be...