TIRED OF SADNESS

This past week, my daughter Taylor went to the eye doctor and was told some scary news. Let me back up a little...when Taylor was 12 the doctor informed us that she has very little optic nerve in her eye. It should look like a doughnut and be mostly doughnut and very little hole, hers is almost all hole. This past week, we were told that she has very very little left and this could and probably will end in her loss of vision. I have had a hard time trying to find my sanity in this. Here is a healthy 22 year old about to be married and is now dealing with this. She said to me " I will be fine. A lot of people are blind and I will deal with it. I will still go to school and have a family and be ok". HOW does she cope this way? I need some of that! In the past 6 years I have been drowning in terminal illness, death, sadness, loss and feelings of wanting to give up on it all. Then I have Taylor who reminds me that it could always be worse. I just want to take this away from her. I want her to see the world, do the things she speaks about, go to help third world countries with medical care, see her children. I feel so mad and on the verge of hating everyone. I will take her to see a specialist this week and hope to get some news that will make sense of this. Until then I hope that my prayers and tears can be heard. I feel helpless..a feeling that I am getting far to used to feeling. I will update soon.