Life as it goes...The next chapter begins...

So after being in bed for a week straight with some type of flue ( I will not admit to swine flu) I thought I was finally going to get out of the house...WRONG! Cassidy woke up yesterday morning with Strep. I did not know what it was at the time but her breathing seemed weird, as well as her coloring and she was whimpering in pain. I decided to take her to the doctor so that she would be feeling better by today ( HER BIRTHDAY). After doing a strep test, I mentioned to the doctor that she had complained that her heart was racing. After examining her, we were told the strep had moved into her heart. We were placed on house quarantine, due to the highly contagious nature of the strep. She was having trouble breathing and swallowing her own saliva. If it got even the slightest bit worse, she was to go right to the hospital to be admitted. She is doing a little better today, still looks terrible but seems to be a little more lucid. Not a fun way to spend her 17th birthday! The women from c...

Today would have been my 23 wedding anniversary. This is my first one since the divorce. Very strange. Very sad. I will always love Chad, I guess the old saying is true ...sometimes Love just is not enough.

Lori and I went to Bermuda and we had an amazing time. To be honest, the ship could have stayed in Boston and we would not have cared. We just had so much fun being silly. We were very involved in every game, show, contest and activity on the ship. We even won Trivia Championship for the ship. It was so fun! I love my sister and I can not wait until the 18th of November when we go to Florida for another cruise!!!

In Bermuda .....Be back in a week.

I have come to realize that in the last 6 weeks or so, I have been so sad, no negative and feeling quite angry that I have far from a perfect life. I compare everything to my past..I was married to a great man, with 4 great kids, a beautiful home, amazing friends, great sisters, a brother I love, 2 living healthy parents. I was living the American Dream...things change. Time goes by, people change, friends move, family grows apart, parents die..marriages end. But As the name of my blog states...LIFE GOES ON. It is time for me to see that good I have and start living life in the best way that I can. I need to be an example to my children, that they can see that sometimes from the darkest times, good things can come and the sun really will rise and hearts heal. So...I have many things to be thankful for but here are 10 that I feel I should share. 10. I have friends. They may not be the ones that I have had my whole life and many are new in my life but they are good, and loyal people and...

So I have not been feeling like posting lately. I have had a lot on my mind but nothing clear enough to post. I will find it in myself again ,soon I hope. Until then, here are some pictures of cassidy that I thought I would share.

I was noticing that the past 3 posts on here were sad. I guess that is what I am feeling the past few weeks. I am learning to get past the divorce and I am really ok with it. I have been sad to see both of my girls recently hurt in relationships. Seeing them sad has been more painful to me then my divorce. I mean haven't they been through enough already? I have a lot of admiration for the strength that they have to power on through things. Heartache doesn't last forever but at the time, it seems as though it will. All I can do is hope that the pain is brief and leaves no scars. I hope to see some light at the end of this very long tunnel very soon. I have been told we are not given more than we can handle...I think we are all at that point. Is it our turn for some happiness yet? I will focus on the good, and try to forget all that we have lost the past 4 years. I will try. We will try. We will be ok.